Yay, I'm alive.
No one reads this... but that's fine.
I've been ON dA but I haven't bothered to post anything...
Maybe soon... who knows... I kinda wanna get active again.

Well, I've had a hectic day today. Emotionally, anyways.
WARNING-RANT BELOW! XD

So I volunteered at camp all day today and yesterday. That was fine, for the most part - though I barely got to do anything. They treated me like I knew absolutely nothing about horses.. right. Anyways, the first day was fine.. I didn't get to ride like my trainer said I would, but she wasn't around for the most part anyways. The second day (today) was even more boring. I felt like one of the camp kids, just being herded around to do nothing by people in my age group. Oh wow. I got to lead a horse for like 5 yards, and supervise a group of kids for like 30 seconds. That's the most I did the whole day. Then, when it came time for kids to start going home, they were painting the ponies in the indoor arena. I was just sitting alone on one of the jump standards, minding my own business and some lady walked up to me and asked me if I knew where "Devin" was. I said she was probably painting the ponies with the other kids. She asked me if I was supposed to be working there, and I said I was just a helper. She told me that for a helper I wasn't being very helpful. So, I just told her (true) that I didn't know many of the camp kids by name and that she could ask one of the counselors. She kinda just glared at me and stalked off toward her kid. Whatever.

Then some group of girls I don't even know (they ride there I guess) just start glaring at me and leaning in to talk to each other in whispers. I'm honestly not that dumb that I didn't know what they were doing, and yet they just keep talking, like 5 feet from me. ._.

So I'm obviously pissed off, and I'm probably not volunteering at that camp again. The riders and people at my stable in general are just rude pricks whenever my coach isn't around. That's why I like volunteering during the day, when the summer camp isn't running, when nobody's there to start shit. Whatever. I didn't even get to ride for the last two days like I was promised I would. I hate people that judge me just because I'm not as involved as them and because I don't jump and I'm not on the show team. It really pisses me off that they feel the need to be so rude.

Sorry about the rant. I'll write more non-rant-ish things later. xD

Anywaaaays, over that, I've got 2 commissions that are taking me a long time to do. They'll probably be up in like.. a few days. If I can finish them by then while balancing all my volunteering and odd-job-hunting. xD

I'm also going to talk to my trainer about part-leasing or leasing a horse, so that should be pretty fun. I'll definitely get some pictures if I do. x)

So yeah.. I have my last 2 exams tomorrow, and I really don't feel like studying. I'm not so much worried about Science.. French is another story. I had a 60 in French before, so I really gotta do well on this.. However at the moment, I have an 83 % in Science and an 82 % in French. W00T! But I haven't even STARTED studying for them and I have Science at 8:30 am tomorrow and French at 12:00 pm.

Other than that.. Life's pretty hectic.
I started riding a different horse; a stallion (I think!?) named River-dancer, or R.D as we call him. He's pretty jumpy, but he just pretends to be scared most of the time. He's just a big wimp around anything that moves. My trainer says I ride him phenomenally except for some little kinks in my self-confidence and riding style, but he'll teach me.

Not sure what else to write about.. xD
Art is coming, I swear. T_T;
My mural at school is finally finished! ^.^ I might take a picture tomorrow and upload it sometime.

Well, isn't the world just a lovely place?

I've been feeling sick lately.. not looking for sympathy, just letting my watchers and friends know that's what's up with the hold-up on traditional and digital art. I've tried going out (like others suggested ^.^) for inspiration, and I've had it, but motivation is what I need to work on right now.. *cough, homework, cough.*

Oh, and guess what, I've been insulted once again.. n.n I got called "trailer trash" behind my back by *coughcough* my "friend"'s mother. She's probably just angry at me for some reason, but isn't she just a little ray of happy sunshine? I don't know WHERE that came from, 'cause of course I'm not the "preppy hollister lover" type (oh, I'm such a dissapointment), and I dress somewhat like a punk - but the outfit in total I was wearing was brand-new, never worn before and came to the sum of about 243 dollars, and I did not look like a whore at all. >.> But she couldn't shut her yap, and I'm being terribly disrespectful by talking about her now on a public website, but it's called karma.. and she better as hell believe in it.

Well, what should I care, anyways?

On the good side, I was asked by my art teacher to do a rather large painting of a horse at my school. 6x4 feet, or something like that. Apparently I'm the second freshman in 10 years to do it.. I just painted the board with regular white paint and I'm going to start the real thing tomorrow.

Anyways, I guess I should stop complaining for a bit and suck it up.. Lol. I can't change the past.

Oh Em Gee, spring is here. <3

FINALLY, screw global warming, I've been waiting for this since, like.. fall. Talk about desperate.

Anywhoooo, not much has been going on really except that I'm experimenting with my hair once again. This time my first layer is going to be black and underneath lime green. I've seen it on other people and I think it'll look awesome; well hopefully, anyway. I'll never know what it looks like if I don't try it first, right?

Other than that, my (not-so) lucky friends are in New York City right now, at six flags. In my opinion.. bad place for a school trip, haha. You can probably guess why I think that.

Ooooh, and Guitar Hero 3 broke, haha, I'm such a nerd but it's like, ruined my gaming life. ): And I haven't had much to do with Halo.. I'm totally jealous of people with wiis for Super Smash Brothers Brawl and Metroid Prime 3. Grr, I wanna play that so badly.
(And luckily, my mom replaced my copy of guitar hero tonight. )

Ooh, and I might upload some art soon. I dunno. I've been feeling kind of self-critical about my art lately and too lazy/nervous to upload my traditional work I've been doing. I'm supposed to get my native-american art posters back soon once they come down from the glass showcase at my school (yes, w00t, second time in a row having my art showcased!). Grades are o'kay, not the best, but whatever, that's what happens to procrastinators with no initiative.. don't think I'm going to change either. xP